this is why i love nat.

why. so. serious?

hey!

Yesterday, during the US university fair, I met the cutest little army boy in the world. This boy is not tall. He has a very clean, small face with small eyes. His complexion is pink and flawless. He speaks well, and softly. He is also gentle. His voice is neither high nor low, but smooth and kind. He has an older sister, and he looks like a Jared. I think he goes to church on Sundays, because he was well dressed at the fair. He is one year younger than me. His eyes disappear when he laughs. He does not like to study too hard, and wants to see the world. I bet my life he has a girlfriend. It makes me very inexplicably sad that I will never see him again. I have almost forgotten what he looks like, yet I have been thinking of him since yesterday with a little pang in my heart.

I suspect I am just clinging on to an image, just so my emotions can dust themselves off and stretch their wobbly legs.
I am a sick, sick being. Also known as siao.

Today, this phrase popped into my head suddenly: ‘It wearies me, you say it wearies you.’ Interesting.

Reading about people being happy and contented because of wonderful and nice people in their lives makes me happy and contented about the wonderful and nice people in my life. I need external stimulation to make me grateful for things I should already be grateful for, but am not. What does that say about me.

By the way, I love Christian Bale. Also, Heath Ledger. Both of them are awesome and lovely and I cannot love them enough. I can demonstrate my love, however, by watching them two days in a row, which I have already done. And buying the pirated DVD from China, which I am going to do. And watching everything Christian Bale has ever acted in, except Reign of Fire, which sucks. And forgetting about Heath Ledger’s undignified foray into the cesspit that is The Knight’s Tale, which, and I think you’d agree, also sucks.

Ok sleepy. night.

yo

after a long hiatus, i am back due to popular demand. hello world!

nothing much to update cos my life revolves around the doldrumic wonder that is the OCBC tower. my day starts only after i leave the life-sapping lobbies at 6.30pm on the dot, but apart from that fascinating little nugget, here are some highlights:
- i owe my friends an obscene amount of cash. (BUT WILL BE PAID ON FRI, WORRY NOT)
- hellboy is a stupid and cool movie, and hellboy is fugly.
- i have regained my love for tennis.

(ok i must interrupt cos nip/tuck is on tv now and julia just kissed the midget and i have to go vomit a little.)(ok done)

- i hate feelings.
- i love that fact that i can see my friends for the first time after half a year and everything is the same
- i am going to cambodia!
- i am going to phuket!
- i love home so much i dunno how to write about it.
- i now know too much about the china banking system and its recent developments.
- ditto for taiwan.
- my ass has reached obscene proportions.
- i have found fellow mahjong noobs to practice with.
- i am seeing a lot of the people, of whom there are very few, who matter most.
- i still do not know what to do with my life.

nemo just licked my toe. heehee.
ok. i dunno why i do this. TATA.

salutations

quote of the day (MY quote summore heh heh heh): in order to succeed in life, just don't do anything stupid.

spent the morning and early afternoon with christine and jerrine in the hospital, where jerrine now resides due to her out-of-commissioned hip. it was surprisingly fun amongst all the sickness and death, cos these little gems sneaked into the conversation:

'i kiap your nub then you know'
vajayjays (as usual)
'jerrine, is your doctor's name 'oil'?'
'jerrine, is your doctor's name 'ok'?'
the wise turtle in kungfu panda
'the bitty/digitalising'

ok that was written yesterday and then i ran out of steam so i went to watch japanese cyborg drama.

today was first day of work. had to shuffle to office and stop sheepishly at various eateries to fix bloody new shoes which were too loose for stupid feet. unglam to the maxXxXxX ok. work was boring shiznit as usual, then tried to watch 21 at amk hub with andrew and his friend but stupid hub (liar lor) don't have so WE WATCH ZOHAN WHICH WAS A COMPLETE WASTE OF 7.50 BUCKS I THINK I STARE AT TOE HAIR AND WATCH IT GROW MORE WU HUA OK.

after that, limped home. and here i am and this is boring so i shall leave you now bye.

hi.

i shall now entitle my posts with words of greeting. see how many i can come up with. is interesting self-challenge.

i am now trying to while away 40 minutes before dinner with family (seafoot! lawbster! klamz! prons!) and i cannot take a nap cos i will never wake up cos TODAY I CYCLED 40 KILOMETRES with naomin and nat. the backside is a past memory, while the face is one that glows red and cannot be forgotten. oh god. the metaphor SUCKS HARHARHAR. but. how to not get ass cancer as cyclist, i do not understand. today i FELT THE BURN for approx 4 hours sia. thighs burnt to crisp alr.

but! cycling in the changi area is beautiful. scenery with pine trees and willows and just all that bloody flora with the blue sea in the background spotted with the white sails of boats and the blue sky spotted with its own white clouds..... was vairy nahce. was amazing how greece-like the scenery was. my country surprises me very occasionally, and when it does i am grateful that there is so much goodness to come back to.

naomin and nat, you are part of the goodness hor, just so you know.

ok i am uncharacteristically mushy. i think is cos got endorphins.
also, cos got lobster in the near future.

sk come back alr i think. HELLO SK IF YOU READ THIS, WHICH I DON'T THINK YOU DO, WELCOME BACK AND EVEN THOUGH NAT SAID I DIDN'T MISS YOU I AM VERY HAPPY YOU HAVE RETURNED TO OUR HUMBLE SHORES.

ok nothing else to say. shit. still got 26 minutes to kill. shall go rummage in fridge. baibai.

hello.

hello. 1.21am and i have to wake up in 6 hours cos i must go to tampines to cycle with nat and naomin. but i cannot sleep, so here i am.

first of all, a shout out to yogi. THANKS FOR THE NICE COMMENT. haha thanks for... having same brain as me la hor. cafe del mar soon ok thanks. and inebriation at unusual hours. :D

had a very nice night. went to tampopo to have KyUsHu BlAcK PoRk RaMeN wItH tAsTy eGg oH gOd with jerrine and felicia. it was... too good to be true. soup boil for 2 days leh, how to not be aWeSoMe. the waiter came to clear my almost empty bowl but i shouted NO at him cos i wanted to finish eVerRy LaSt DrOp and he looked at me... fearfully. i scare myself sometimes.

wed night went to sleepover at naomin's house cos must watch germany vs turkey. atiqah was there too, was nice talking to her again. before the match, we were made to watch the heinous movie 'Bats' cos naomin HAD to see the ending, learnt german bridge (christine must teach you, must.) and took a nap. next morning, woke up late, went to eat kaya toast and egg, then bummed around er, simei ntuc with naomin while her mother shopped around. the heartlandless of my life knows no bounds. i love it.

i love naomin cos she thinks i'm funny even when i'm not.
*call naomin on handphone*
me: hi naomin. do you eat cherries.
naomin: HAHAHAHA. yes.
me: do you also eat longans.
naomin: HAHAHAHA SAM YOU ARE SO FUNNY. yes.
me: 0.o very funny meh.

ok actually quite funny la. BUT CONTEXT: i bought fruits to eat at her house during match. not call her.... to ask her about her fruit preferences. that one a bit.. insane la HOR. ok evidently, am very bored now.

tonight over ramen me jerrine and felicia expanded on our spinster commune idea. i think i have found enough interested parties to form a spinster community. then.... we will have to call each other by our spinster names, to foster a sense of belonging and camaraderie. for example, my name will be... Spinster Sam la. and jerrine will be.... Spinster Jerrine. ok not much imagination, but spinsters hor, please forgive. then..... we will worship food, cos no men in our lives. every sunday we... dress in sunday best and go to tampopo and pray to the black pork kyushu ramen la k.

ok. this has been a very pointless and nonsense post. so i shall go to sleep. goodnight, world.

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Under 'Top 25 Most Played' in my Itunes:
'Prisoner of Love' - Utada Hikaru
'With Me' - Rain

Watched since i came back:
Full House (Korean drama)
Last Friends (Japanese drama)

Dinner tonight: Japanese Food at Kuriya

Ringtone: 'Lies' - Big Bang

i am... a blood traitor.