i am 21 and going to france

i don't think anyone reads this anymore. not even me. whatever. i shall now blog bout the past few days cos they have been very good and full ones, and i need to remember.

let us start on yacht day (i have lost all sense of time). in the morning, i went to nat's aunt's party with naomin, as two VERY EXTRA CHINESE GIRLS out on a CULTURAL ACTIVITY. never see aunt before, very out of place. nevertheless, cried when bride walked in, cos very pretty. siao ok. the tear ducts have problems. after that, went home to change and then it was dwayne's 21st on the yacht that never left the dock. of course, a crassy crassy affair was rendered much less so cos... we are disgusting ppl la. talk very loudly with beehoon and chicken wings in mouth etcetc. the usual. got a tad tipsy, then went back to dwayne's (with a very drunk dwayne) to play some rock band and pingpong while he... lay in his room la. we are horrible friends. but dwayne, if you read this, THE PARTY WAS VERY FUN HOR, AND I LIKE IT A LOT. THANKS.

the next day was the day before my birthday. had champagne brunch with jerrine rachel adeline shirin luke dwayne christine at shangri la's the line. again, crassy affair made very much less so cos of the loud talking and annoying photo taking. got nice prezzies. was very happy. food very good, eat until peng. after lunch, went back to dwayne's (again) with one or two drunken (christine) mishaps along the way, for more rock band. then rushed off to nat's farewell allllllll the way in tampines and met her two boiz, who are my New Best Buddies. then, family dinner at chinese restaurant where.. i ate again la. i kinda hate food now.

my birthday, was my VERY LOVELY HIGH TEA SURPRISE WITH NAOMIN AND NAT. I LOVE THE SURPRISE. I SWEAR. had coffee at TCC first as 'decoy', then i guessed my surprise, then we went for it. ate like fiend again, then rushed home to set up for wesleyan bbq, which turned out pretty nice and chill and relaxed, which was nice. got to see anand aditi conan mark shuwei and met chengxi and joel. drank more champagne, bitched about more ppl.

day after my birthday, met ashlyn and yogi for thwarted ramen and green tea ice cream. lucky christine allow. [(tampopo man: tomorrow) (inside joke. VERY FUNNY, trust me)]
ashlyn: life as a human is hard.
after very nice and funny lunch, went to island creamery to meet edwin and olivia, and very quickly adjourned to ollie's house for rock band 2, where i discovered edwin's weakness: rhythm :D i think i am a convert, though. i blame christine. and zen... off to city hall to meet jerrine for secret meeting where we fantasized and were overall very disgusting. had soft boiled eggs. veh nais. then went to airport to see nat and luke off, which was noisy and happy affair, then was fetched back and am now home and very very sleepy. so... goodnight world, and tmr night i will be in pareeeeeee. :D

so far, being 21 is very very nice :)

merry christmas and all that

quick recaps... tuesday i met jasmine in the afternoon for bolt (THE HAMSTER. PLEASE WATCH BOLT FOR THE HAMSTER.) and xo noodles at, where else, amk hub. caught up and etc, and i showed her the most impt part of the hub: scarlet city. at night met family friends and some of their friends for japanese excellence at Botan and drinks at Blu Jaz after, where we met with disappointment and no live jazz.

wednesday was the day of the ill-fated tree top trail hike, which was rained on so i met nat and naomin at city hall for long awaited crab tang hoon at thai express where we argued over the bill, talked about islamic banking and cried. again. about balls. in the evening was church, then met jerrine and luke after for a could-be-funner zouk night which was nevertheless fun COS I GOT TO HANG OUT WITH YOU, JERRINE AND LUKE.

and today, christmas day, was spent helping mother prepare for usual partay. i made the cranberry sauce. woo. had the whole spectrum of meat laid out for dinner: pork (sausages, ribs and ham), goose, turkey, chicken, duck and beef and i died with the meaty loveliness of it all. tried to watch transformers with edwin and calvin but was chased off. the after party was a long and squishy drive with the cousins to sembawang beach, just because i said the drive was nice and straight and the beach was dirty and dark. we had fun watching people try to fish and clambering around playgrounds, making homevideos and annoying campers, breathing the salty air and brushing scratchy sand off our feet, swinging and running and climbing and even vibrating, at one point. there is something about the night that inspires the tranquil, unapologetic childishness that i wish i could have in daylight. after that we drove to the other end of singapore for late night prata and enjoyed the straight stretch of green lights that only the night can offer us.

it seems that everything i do this holiday is veiled by a thin gauze of barely discernible sadness - sadness at leaving so soon, the selfish sadness of loneliness; i am not sure what it is. what i do know is that the tangible presence of friends cars playgrounds family food dancing familiarity is effectively sweeping this undesired, unwarranted annoyance far into the part of my brain that is duly uncovered whenever i am far from home. i doubt the healthiness of this self-defensive mechanism, but for the meantime... je m'en fous.

god. it's good to be back

ok never blog for very very long so i must recap from very long ago but i am sick and sleepy so i shall do it quickly. last few days of school. when not spent studying, was spent quite nicely with friends whom i am not going to see for at least another 8 months to ever. hung out with nicolas, linda, dan, shirinandrudi, elena, paul, eric, erwin, sarah, ivy, iwan, kohei, nateandsue and of course siyou at various different meals, had a farewell partay where i took a lot of nice photos but after which my camera was stolen :((( and... that was it, actually. every other waking moment was spent packing or studying. not very fun at all.

aaaaaaand... NOW I AM AT HOME AND heeheehee i love life again. in the past 3 days i have had enough chill, nice, happy, friendly, familiar, lovely fun to fill about 2 months in wes. so on friday, arrived in the morning, FIRST THING I GOT WAS YOUZHA AND WARM SOYA BEAN WITH MOTHER. ah bliss. and then lunch with elizabeth and ming and their friends at cheap ass dimsum (which i got for free :D:D), got fetched home, took nap till dinner, then went to eat world's freaking best rojak at balestier with family. and then and then. FUN HAVEN'T END KNOW. went to meet luke and ky at island creamery, then was driven to holland v for wala wala and mr siva. stumbled home in jet-lagged, alcohol-enhanced tiredness and fell asleep for a blissful 12 hours.

saturday was dedicated to nat and naomin! i must say... i haven't laughed SO FUCKING MUCH IN OH, 5 MONTHS. we oozed in the heat from TCC in raffles city to suntec to nat's house, where we spent er... much time laughing until peng over the unbelievable ugliness of our 14-17 yr old selves. goddamn i was a fugly teenager. when we were tired our from all the laughing, we headed to Mr Prata, ate beehoon goreng (alsfalskfja;klfja;klfjafkjaf good. a;lskdfjalkfdjalkfjalkdfj) and laughed summore, until i had to come home because i was all laughed out and there were no more laughter tears in my tear ducts. i swear. it was a weird feeling.

today went to church and surprised many with my unexpected presence. it was nice being so... wamrly received. then lunch at maxwell with parents, where there was the AWESOME MAXWELL FISH SOUP I HAVE BEEN CRAVING FOR SINCE WELL... OCTOBER. i died. didn't talk for 20 minutes. and zen... off to christine's house where jerrine very opportunely skyped us! met luke and his manchester friends at PS cafe, talked too much about rock band, then was very nicely given a lift to orchard to meet felicia for bout 4 hrs of bitchiness, had ayam penyet (:D:D:D) and am now at home, showered, sitting on bed with laptop and nemo next to me. HIYAH. THE NICENESS OF LIFE.

and much more fun to come, cos jerrine returns and rachel returns and cousins come to singapore and i go to clubmed bintan and another wes dinner and there is christmas and new yr and my 21st AND HIYAH. SO SHIOK :D

whatever

studying makes me think of everything else but.

so. i shall now list my three favourite smells in the world, ever.
1. fresh orange peel
2. lavender
3. horses

aaaaand... that's all, folks.

In the name of procrastination

I have sat in front of my computer for the entire day and the only time when my keyboard clacks so quickly and productively is when i am... blogging. ergo, it has not clacked quickly or productively all day :(((((.

ahead: packing my wesleyan life into boxes again, french final paper, COL final paper, korean final, econ final (DEATHDEATHDEATH), forensic geology final, frenetic meals with people i will not see for 8 months/1 yr/ever.

it is insane how long this semester has been and how it has flown by. i forget details of things that have happened at the begining of september, but the beginning of september seems just yesterday. memory is a strange thing.

had joint farewell party with erwin on monday night. almost everyone i wanted to come, came, and that is good enough. no matter how much i complain about this school and the people in it, there are some i am genuinely sad to leave behind. so... yay. not all is lost. also, i have received funny presents from assorted koreans/asians, so that was nice. so far i have received: taro bubble tea, shin ramen, a piece of paper with eric's face transposed onto an ugly man, porridge, an annotated korean Men's Health, and a paper flower.

teehee. ok now french essay calls to me. must heed. turrah.

be back home VEREH VEREH SOON :D:D

hello christine. i blog for yooz again k.

i do not feel like i have anything of worth to say anymore, thus the lack of blogging. hell knows why i feel thus.

but for the sake of typing something down... this friday has been a nice one. as usual, taiko and horseriding made me happy again, even though i fell off high horse. literally hor, not metaphorically. have never been on metaphorical high horse, cos have no morals. K ANYWAY. came back, elena called, had semi-usual friday gathering of gal palz for dinner: me shirin linda and elena. then rushed to sch cinema with isaac and eric and dom for screening of dark knight! which i have watched twice but it gets better each time i watch it! the joker and the christian bale and the humanity! dieded. i also love the black prisoner who threw the detonator out of the window. a tear made its stupid way out at that point. hannyways... after that went to chinese house for bubble tea with sue somin and paul. felt very wholesome and family like, which is good. zen... came home to make mulled wine with erwin. heehee VERY NICE OMG. so we randomly put a bunch of shit in a pot of wine: orange peel and oranges, ginger slices, brown sugar and a lot a lot of cinammon powder. and then put on low heat. and then drank and watched 2 days in paris, with somin. and now after movie we are tipsy and thus have gone to our respecive rooms to sleep it off.

nice.

tomorrow night will be french hall party, GIRL TALK CONCERT IN SCH GYM WITH 1500 PPL WOO, sunday will be taiko performance and monday will be the last day of school. YAY.

k. guess i should update again.

woo. first snow today lehhh. little puffs of greyish powder lie among half-dead grass, under steel-grey, sleet-urinating sky. as you can see, the weather is putting me in a very good mood. also, the fact that it is sunday and i can no longer sleep more than 10 hours a day!!!!!!! howz~~~~???

so, thanksgiving involved:
- me being invited to a korean 'gathering' and me not feeling completely out of place. teehee. TRIUMPH OF THE OUTSIDER.
- playing mario kart with pyungah, nick and somin
- going to boston with siyou paul and chelsea and spending thanksgiving dinner semi-conscious in BU. thanksgiving dinner was very asian: roast duck, stir fried lobster, beef, spinach, rice and egg tarts hahaha
- shopping on black friday quite unsuccessfully, and meeting rachel with siyou and thomas and chelsea in chinatown for dimsum!
- coming back to campus and being a hermity sloth. or a slothy hermit. both also can.

so... that was my weekend. my and siyou's last trip togetherzzz~~. we spent very good quality time together, including affirming each other in the dark, squabbling about directions and lateness, talking about er.. the future (NOT TOGETHER HOR, DON'T GET WRONG IDEA PLS THANKS) and the present and everything else in between. teehee. aiyoh. this is very disgusting and mushy and i hate it so... i shall now go do korean homework.

baibai.

long time no see, blog.

weekend was fun, cos no more horse show so can sleep late. aiyoh. that just sounded very loser. ok hannyway, it is first day of thanksgiving break and i have the WHOLE DAY FREE and i have just been watching movies in my room and cooking noodles and listening to music and am going to take a nap. BLIZZ.

so. recap of weekend hor. thursday night i cooked bahkutteh for linda shirin and rudi! we polished off 1.5kg of pork ribs, VERY VERY SCARY OMG. and 7 bowls of soup. hahaha. stomach mati alr i think. then watched Rocket Science with somin and spent the rest of the night feeding linda and rudi.

friday was horseriding as usual, and i rode well and was happy. at night went to sarah's birthday partay in her basement and had a lot of weird drunken encounters such as counseling a japanese man, being counselled by other japanese men, laughing at other horny asians, laughing about things that are not funny, shouting names of indonesian food in a circle, and boob touching. ran home at 4.30am because it was cold and dark and i had a vision that i was being chased by monster trucks.

saturday night went to studio 54 party at psi u with paul and other housemates. paul wore blue flared jeans and vintage loafers and a hawaiian tucked in shirt, and i loved him for that. we were being pushed around by stupid couples making out so i did rudi's use-ass-to-dance-into-people-and-push-then-away thing and herded them all away from us. hero, i am. then came home, had fun with apple bongs, watched pineapple express and cooked 3 bowls of noodles with linda.

sunday was work and shit. went to investment group meeting. SO BORING. BRAIN SHRIVELED UP AND DIED. i looked at the insidious, money-grabbing, single-minded people around me and was very sad that they are all very accurate representations of the people i might work with for the rest of my life. UNLESS. i be brave and don't listen to my father. but that is anotehr story for another time.

monday was a shitty day, cos i got back a bad essay and felt stupid for the rest of the day. night improved with dinner at french hall with siyou and shirin and isaac cos jega cooked nasi lemak and roti prata and it was VERY VERY GOOD OMG. jega is master housewife sia. why boy (albeit, gay) can cook so much better than me. at night was siyou's birthday party again in sarah's basement. got suitably wasted again and met the handsomest irish gay man EVER, met another Sam multiple times, witnessed illicit lesbian action, asked a lot of people if they have ever gotten back a bad essay (so bloody irritating omg), laughed at horny birthday girl, gave her a lap dance, was coerced into doing things, yelled bout forensic geology and ate a lot of fries.

ok.bed looks very inviting, it is time to dive in. heeheehee. bye all!

quote from Annie Hall

which i just watched with Dan cos i have no homework and no life. it is a very nice and succinct and slightly sad quote about something with which i have had zero experience but one is allowed to appreciate the unknown, is one not.

Alvy Singer: [Woody Allen narrating, talking about his ex-girlfriend] After that it got pretty late, and we both had to go, but it was great seeing Annie again. I... I realized what a terrific person she was, and... and how much fun it was just knowing her; and I... I, I thought of that old joke, y'know, the, this... this guy goes to a psychiatrist and says, "Doc, uh, my brother's crazy; he thinks he's a chicken." And, uh, the doctor says, "Well, why don't you turn him in?" The guy says, "I would, but I need the eggs." Well, I guess that's pretty much now how I feel about relationships; y'know, they're totally irrational, and crazy, and absurd, and... but, uh, I guess we keep goin' through it because, uh, most of us... need the eggs.

oh noes

i just bought a bunch of grapes and a teeny tiny almost negligible box of blueberries for... USD$11.99.

O.o wtf. might need to sell my soul soon.

weekend

was ok. got third in horse show!!!! very happy! i have a ribbon declaring my excellent shiny third placing! yay!!!

but apart from that... everything was mostly bland and blah. i need to go home.

i also watched james bond and was disappointed with the lack of sex. and wit. however. the gratuitous shot of daniel craig's half naked torso was very er, greedily digested, without sounding like a complete perv.

hmm

i just realised that i played TAIKO in front of the PRESIDENT of the UNITED STATES. and he WAVED to us. and there were snipers pointing GUNS at us while we were playing.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

misery is

when you sleep only four hours at night
to feel that your essay sucks cock
and then to fail econs midterm
only to be rained on when you stop out of class
to go to work for pittance as slave
and then to find out that the hat you bought online cannot fit onto your huge head
as you step into a puddle which ruins your brand new pumps
while you struggle to breathe cos there is mucous in your nose all the bloody time
at the same time thinking how your life is boring and grey while everyone around you is living glittery shiny ones
before going to eat shitty food for which you pay an extortionate amount
which is followed up by the dessert of more homework.

misery is also when you know this will happen again.

exciting

it was an insane campus last night. everyone was on foss hill, drunk and high and exuberant and dancing and letting off fireworks and screaming and hugging and listening to this song:





i wish i felt like this about my government.

meep!

as politically apathetic as i am, it is no doubt that tonight will be lak;fj;akldfj exciting.
however, i might be working in the lab when results of the next ruler of the first world come out. such is my life.

skool

weekend better than last, vastly. friday night i decided i was in need of a drunken night out, so i did. went to Buddhist House (!) for party with siyou isaac carlo leslie maria dan etc and lance lance and old flames were er, revived and we were almost caught by police for trespassing and then went home to cook noodles and listen to romanian music with dan and maria.

tonight i just stayed in my room and tried to read godot and played the hardest game in the world (seriously. http://www.addictinggames.com/theworldshardestgame.html) and tried buying horses, donkeys, vietnamese wives and hookahs with isaac linda and dan. thankfully, we only succeeded in buying the last item. there is a party raging outside my room and my room is nice and bright and comfy and quiet and nice so i shall stay here with pocky and mojito.
v nais.

isaac: i wonder what you would get if you cross-bred a horse and a donkey.
me: a honkey.
isaac: !!
me: whoops.

k thass all. till next uneventful weekend, which i wish would come right now cos next week i have econ midterm, shitload of readings, korean test, COL essay, and US elections. cannot live alr.

sadness

i just realised my 21st birthday will be spent in transit :(:(:(:(:(:(:(:((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

fall break et al

so tonight i ponned another party cos the taiko performance sapped me of all my youthful energy. this anti-social behaviour cannot continue, it is rather worrying.

anyway, fall break is almost over :(. over weekend went to NY for much asian food (korean bbq, dimsum (TWICE!), hippie cafe food, ramen, and southern comfort food), shopping, visiting MoMA and karaoke (!!!) with housemates and the etcs. and rachel! meeting rachel was very nice and fun and familiar and i was happy :) we had dinner at the insane hippie cafe and talked about er, interesting lives and not so interesting lives and walked about after dinner in the brisk fall air.

random things:
nick and norah's infinite playlist is the cutest movie ever! please watch, cos michael cera just made my heart pop like.... a weasel la. (i know it's pop goes the weasel BUT WHATEVER. ARTISTIC BLOGGING LICENCE).

tomorrow i (hopefully) start planning morocco and get things settled with friend. AM. SO. EXCITED.

also, sch starts on wed and i already have an insane amount of work it is not funny. THE PLAGUE, IT PLAGUES ME. k night. off to continue my very chill and zen night alone after 3 days of frenetic new york meandering with too many people.

yay!

i have too much work to live but i am happy because:
- i had nice chat with jerrine yesterday, about very long necks and cubes/pubes and unwashed mushrooms
- i just skyped nat and naomin in simei starbucks singapore ZOMG. heart very warm
- will be seeing rachel vairy vairy soon
- vermont is more or less confirmed
- there is hope for my morocco trip yet!

aaaaand, that's all folks. now i must trawl through 40 pages of indecipherable french creole, at 1.13am. joy.

hmm

i think this says a lot about my sad little state of mind that today, the thing that made me most happy was not the nice weather, nor the ice cream i had after lunch with friends, nor the taiko session, but the fact that econ class was canceled.

in other news, ny in 3 days. cannot. bloody. wait.
school has been going on for far too long.